Oh my goodness, what a session!! I thought the first 3 were bad enough, with me not speaking at any of them and then walking out at the second, but this was just horrrible. My family made me speak first to say how i thought the two weeks had gone and i said they had been the same as always. Which they have been because i gave up trying to speak to them after 3 days because i couldnt be bothered.
Then after that conversation the therapist who leads the session asked my family if they could see why i stop or if something happened blah blah, but my mum came out with a whole load of stuff and said she's had enough of me and i do nothing so how can she ever praise me and she cant take anymore but its not like she can throw me out on the street!! If she wants i'll go and live somewhere else, doesnt bother me in the least.
Mum also said that i never accept hugs from them so the therapist asked why that was and i said i dont deserve them - which i dont! and dad turned round and said "you can always have a hug, you know that" and the therapist had to repeat what i said, because he didnt registar that i said "i dont deserve them!" then after much talking and heated emotions mum was crying and then just walked out and my sister ran after her, i dont my dad to go but he didnt he stayed with me.
The therapist asked if i wanted to continue with the sessions and i said no. Why should we keep going if they arent preapred to listen to what the therapist is suggesting them to do?!
So now, im back to just seeing my therapist (which im ok with) once a week and im being sneaky with her and using her to help me stop bingeing, but with that advice im using it to restrict :)
Stay strong
Love Jojo x x
